I May Feel Slightly Sad, But I Won't Cry

Well, it's official. I'm now a year older and heading into the latter half of my 20s, and so the completely irrational panic and mild depression set in. I've had an aversion to birthdays for most of my life - my tenth birthday being one of the more traumatizing ones (see this post as to why). Is there such a thing as having a phobia about birthdays? I don't know if it's even necessarily related to worrying about how much I've achieved up to this point or how much I should have accomplished. This feeling I get tends to happen in the few weeks leading up to the day and on the day itself, but subsides soon after, so I'm thinking it's related to my general sense of preemptive loss - even for happy occasions or events I often anticipate and imagine the feeling I will get at their end before they even occur. It makes for a rather strange predicament, but maybe by listening to the birthday-themed tunes below I can exorcise this melodramatic mood and once again shake the panicked feeling. At least until next year. Besides, with the US elections, the world has enough to worry about today already.

Unhappy Birthday - The Smiths

Birthday Girl - Trembling Blue Stars

Happy Birthday Girl - Sondre Lerche

A Birthday Present - The Veils

Birthday - Sugarcubes